Yes sorry man my bad. To be honest it's just i guess im just having too much problems in my personal life that im taking everything around overly personal/sensitive and defensive. Well still if you see someone overreacting to somthing you dont go and make fun of him like BasTid man. Telling me i make zero sense whatsoever. I guess i just got upset about it, but anyway you are right and i am sorry.
Again im sorry. Im just going through too many things at the moment.
Thats a fantastic path and i prefer it too. Well its just few people already came here and talk like im a joke puting me in a bit of defensive mode. And i guess i can understand them, im not quite making myself clear enough, too much you know feelings too little sense, i guess.
Sure i can explain. But first of all i aint no pro. I just wanted to say that im having no problems with my game im totally satisfied with how it is.
I started playing maybe like 10 years ago just for fun it was a free website called celebpoker, it was very popular back in 2010 and plenty of people were playing there. So i played for maybe a year and started wining and having alot of fun doing that. Even tho it was just for fun. Note that on highest level people played really good as there was no real way of gaining chips rather then win them. U could buy from site but prices were ridiculous. So then when i start getting to top winers on the site people start asking me to sell those chips to them. So thats it. I was selling those chips to people, they send money to ewallet and then we go to private table and i was losing chips to them.
As for real poker, well i think the last month i won maybe 500 dollars. You could look me up on sharkscope - abgvedr on ACR and vovcke on BlackChip. Well im not saying im any good, beating microlimits does not make you a fantastic player. Anyway. Just wanted to say that frustration that you could have seen in my posts doesn't come from the game, but from the problems in my personal life. And im doing my best to you know speak with my mind, but some people doesn't make it any easier.
Well anyway. Sorry guys.
Thank you for this answer. I am very pleasantly surprised, I did not expect such a humble answer, and that is my fault for prejudging how you might respond, and I will apologize for my wrong prejudgement even though you probably would not have even been aware of this.
First of all, thank you for explaining why your attitude was coming across as it was. I am sorry you are having troubles in your life that cause you to react as you described above. But this is something that is simply human. You seem to be someone who also likes self-reflection, and this is a great way to improve life's quality without material or emotional needs being met. If I may be so presumptuous, there is a book I have recently read which I found phenomenal. It is called "Riding the Elephant" by Ray McKinley. I found it helped me tremendously to view myself in a more observative way as opposed to a judgemental way, meaning that I will see more of what I do and less of why I do it, although the "why" is still important to understand. It's kinda hard to explain in a couple of sentences.
Let's say someone says "You are an asshole" to you. Is your initial impulse to hit them, to ask them why they think that, to step back and wonder if there is maybe some truth to the statement, and so on. Many ways to react. Many ways to think. Many ways to feel. Many ways to compare this to other situations in the past. Anyway, I know I am derailing, but if this has piqued your interest, maybe give that book a look. And, full disclosure, I am in no way affiliated with the book nor do I know the author nor do I profit in any way if you would buy it. I simply find it one of the best self-reflection books I have read.
Now, back to the software. I think I get where you are coming from. But you yourself have also stated (and I 100 % agree) that the software does not make a player better. But the same info you gather at a live table, like bet sizing, VPIP, position play etc. will be gathered by the software. But if you do not know how to intelligently use this information, it will not help. If you have stats that show a river C/R means he is strong, and you still refuse to let go of AA when he C/R OTR with some kind of coordinated board, then the software is trying to give you info that you refuse to accept. (Not "you" as in you). So the software simply gathers info that you can filter and isolate. What each individual does with that info will show how in tune to the game they actually are.
I used the software, as I mentioned, and it was incredibly hard work. I had to filter my big wins and losses and then observe the
hands off the table, see what mistakes I made or what stats I missed or misread and so on. Like if I had an average of 6BB/100 hands, with 24 tables I had 2 BB/100 hands, but LOTS more hands per hour. Of course, 2BB/100 hands will probably still see you getting eaten up with rake depending on site and stakes. And, after a few years of hard work and many hours invested, I had to admit that I am nowhere near good enough to play poker as anything but a hobby. It hurt for me to admit this, but it helped as well.......
I appreciate your poker story and thanks for sharing. And thanks again for your post above. Lifes problems can be overwhelming at times, and especially in times like we have right now. We only walk this planet for a few steps before we are gone. When life throws obstacles in our way, it is up to each individual to decide if the obstacle will be a challenge to overcome, or simply a reason to become bitter. (Yea, it is way more complicated than that, I know, I'm just sayin...)
Anyway, good luck to you and keep playing your poker. Stay safe and healthy.