Wow its been this long. Sorry guys
I guess an update is... i'm still soul searching and well 2018 is near.
What have I accomplished with 2017, I've learnt a few valuable lessons and it's not exactly all poker.
1. I can't follow my head, I have to follow my heart... This sounds crazy but 2017 I've been paying the price for it. Tried doing what I thought was right, rather what was best for me.
2. Got practice in before it got banned in Australia, So that was great.
3. Keep people close to you, who want the best for you and want to better you. These people are so important and rare.... Ditch the ones who are holding you back.
4. (Added) Sometimes looking in the past isn't a good idea. If you look as deep into it as I do... theres sometimes no getting back and well sometimes its best to stay naïve. But I felt it had to be done if I had to go to the next level in poker and find the core of the problem.
So yeah 2018 is looking scarey to begin with but hopefully it'll turn out for the best. I'm currently in limbo and need to really start making some decisions and get things going in my life.
I still pickup on tells in life, Poker for me really made me see things in a different way, outside the box, I'm not sure if it's just me but personally that's what I have found.
Currently been working 55-60 hour weeks now, just trying to improve my perception at work. I found I was doing the bare minimum for a couple years but this isn't about poker it was about someone else getting that promotion that I had deserved. Anyway I feel I'm better off making sure I show quality even if things didn't go my way.
2018 ... I'll need strength and it seems like my bankroll... Need to restart my life and build it... It's not all that bad, I just feel weird because a lot of guys I know lose their family due to being ditched. But for me it's the other way and I know i'll always get women if I need it... Things always go my way in the end, but I won't take it for granted and just work on improving things 1 by 1 and aim to get fit for poker again in the upcoming year.
I also said i'd dig deep and soul search, well I have but sometimes things are best left in the past and not everything I've done has been pretty but we learn what we have done wrong and push on.
I'm still flat and meh because I know whats to come in the upcoming months.