Hello brother
Look, I'm telling you as an anecdote so that you realize what variance is.
Yesterday because of my
bankroll situation I started throwing my first bullets in NL5 cash.
I lost 4 boxes in almost an hour.
The 1st was a flopped flush versus a 4 quads of eights
The 2nd a pair of Aces all-in against a flopped A10 set of 10s
The 3rd A pair of QQ allin versus a pair of JJ peak J flop
The 4th A pair of KKs against a pair of 10s I skewer 10s on the flop
So far 4 boxes in an hour was practically to retire.
Then with a lot of luck, click set on the turn in an allin KK versus QQ in which the opponent on the flop had clicked the Q.
Then I already in Deep Stack I faced a player who had half the stack than me with KK he me with 1010 click All in click 10 on river.
And so on, I finish my poker section with a profit of $4
As a friend of ours used to say "this is poker".
If you don't get used to this, it's very difficult to move on. So meditate, do some exercise that allows you to understand that this is a game. That in the long run the one who plays well prevails, and that the variance exists for everyone!!!
A big hug brother and come back with very good energy
Greetings