ventrolloquist
Visionary
Silver Level
I can relate to you here ^
For me, cash tables & tournaments are two different things. Years ago I felt bad while playing on cash tables (Fulltilt days) and after easily stacking some donkey I would often ship them their 100bb's back via a transfer. I'd picture them sitting there, feeling totally defeated over & over... maybe down to their last $'s in their account. Certainly not the ruthless type of mindset one might find to be more optimal, lol. I'd also picture them having a gambling addiction.
But for tournament play I don't feel bad or sorry for anyone. I don't experience the same moral dilemma there. I actually focused on tournament play for my first 4yrs. online partly because of this.
Today I play mostly cash & I don't think about it at all. I don't even picture the other players on my table as people... & if I do, I don't picture the 18yr. old kid in some 3rd world county hardly being able to buy into a $5 mtt or some grandma who lives down the street from me, having fun while sipping her afternoon tea while feeling sorry for them when they lose. Instead I might picture some pimply-faced, mouthy teenage punk with his jeans pulled down & hangin' below his arse, hat turned sideways while holding an assortment of odd finger sign languages up in front of his face, sayin' stuff like 'axe' when it clearly should be 'ask' & he knows it. It's much easier for me this way, lol.
When some donk sucks out on someone on a tournament table, I picture someone who hardly even realizes how lucky they actually just got... I picture that old grandma shouting out over to her half-asleep husband who's pretending to read the newspaper "Honey I hit my straight! I knew it was going to be a '4'... "FOUR!!!! Come on FOUR!!!" "
Totally agree with you on feeling much better playing tournaments, despite it technically still being taking other people's money it doesn't feel as bad since they basically already paid.
I do feel bad sometimes when I'm heads up at final tables and wonder if I'm duking it out with someone trying to make a living in a 3rd world country, but at least they get a decent chunk and it's mostly a coin-flip at that point.
lmao at the straight thing, what I usually picture is someone imagining that they are a solid reg and that they schooled me when they hit their gutshot after calling a PSB
Edit: I actually totally missed the bit you wrote about worrying you are playing vs. someone in a 3rd world country and ended up having the same thought with my post.
Honestly I think if they were to open the chat and tell me they need the money (and if it wasn't a big buy in tournament) I might actually settle for 2nd