1° Depression is not from playing poker, I think you are already depressive in itself.
Depression has a cure. His healing is based on faith, hope and love.
If you have faith your life will change. There will begin the hope that everything will turn out better, and those days when they are not so good, you will hope wisely and calmly that the future will be much better.
But the most important of these is love. Without love you are nothing. When I speak of love I do not speak of the love of a relationship with a woman, but of love in its entire spectrum. Giving without asking for anything in return. Giving until it hurts. Knowing that you help someone and it will please your soul and heart to have done so.
If you live for these 3 causes, the depression ends.
2° I see that you are a good poker player. You have goals so you hope to achieve that goal.
Here are several aspects to follow.
In the beginning you must study, learn, there are different ways. They can be videos. The courses are very good in general. There are interviews in which players explain about strategies at tables or MTTs, and various other learning methods.
But you must understand, that in this game luck exists. There may be many mathematical probabilities and so on, but luck exists.
This is not chess. In chess there are no bad beats.
In poker you play badly and you can win, The famous "bingo players". In chess this situation does not exist, you play badly and you lose.
For example a play from yesterday in an MTT. One player against a 7BB raise goes all-in with 23s and the other player calls with AA. Result....2 and 3 at the showdown, for a double and the story is over for AA.
Next hand, the same player calls with 89s of spades an all-in raise of 56BB to a player showing KK. Result the one who played badly in theory, put in the showdown a straight 6 7 8 9 10 and the other player on the flop had put the set with the K.
Although seasoned poker players always say that in the long run knowing how to play prevails, what I mean by this is that these hands disappoint you.
Yesterday I read one of our friends who entered the millionaire Sunday of the weekend that happened, that with a KK hand another player paid him with an 82s and put the flush in the showdown.
With this I tell you, that all your illusion can go away in a matter of seconds against a barrel player who, because he has chips, pays you and puts you in a game at any time with junk cards.
For me, the solution to this is to have a large bank and that allows you to play many tournaments in the long term, and to enter tournaments that allow you to overcome the multiplicity of badbeats and bingo players that you have in the diversity of rooms.
In this way, your depression regarding the game of poker will be sustained, at least, until the great moment arrives in which you will always overcome the barriers that the game imposes on you.
For that, your bankroll should never be at zero, but should be a sustained bankroll that has increased over time to overcome all obstacles.
Depression is overcome brother by being optimistic. Overcoming the unpleasant obstacles to which life submits us, and enjoying the moments in which life gives us happiness.
Always with Faith, Hope and above all Love.
A hug brother, and may God bless you always
