A fishes attempt to become a bigger fish!
this is my first posting and it is a long one so please be nice...
A couple of nights ago I was playing in a MTT and it was going rather well, by the second break I had the third largest stack and was fairly smug of the nights development.
Then it happend got my fullhouse cracked by a quad. Not only i was knocked out in the next hand missing making cash, but i continued to spend the rest of my 1607 dollars on 100 dollar HU. (I know stupid)
To say that I tilted would be a slight understatement, I went into one of those meltdowns that you would expect from a defected nuclear plant, resulting with smashing the keyborad, the mouse and having only 7 bucks left on my account.
I have fixed the keyboard now in a contraption that even Mcgayver would be proud of and now gonna fix my bank roll and my game and ive got a plan with a twist
Im gonna grind my way upp to 1500 and blow it all in one 1500 buy in event - I KNOW IT IS STUPID, IT NEVER WORK OUT AND I WILL MOST PROB. GO BROKE.
But this is the idea behind the madness ( or it might just be madness but hear me out) The idea is that i will learn by experience quite a few essential things;
1. ive got to truly grind it out so that i can take my 7 bucks all the way upp to the 1500. in the time limit that i need to doit ( 1st of march).
To achieve that I cant do any stupid ass moves. I have to play effectivly and to the best of my ability - which hopefully will lead to me learning alot and develop as a player.
2. THE MOST IMPORTANT THING; at the end of it putting my entire roll on the line and "taking a shot" which will most prob. fail spectacularly; I will learn by experience that pipe dreams never work out, Ill get it out my system, and never play above my BR again. EVER!
Sorry about the long post, let me know what you think but please bear in mind that i am totally aware that the above plan is at best a very hard thing to achieve and also at the same time it can be considerd idiotic.