Thanks Guys I have read all your comments, and find a lot of similarities. I am lucky in some sense that being self employed, I was able to retire early and now I can play a lot more often, But only last night I was playing in the CC free-roll on
pokerstars and lo and behold! my daughter needed a lift somewhere, I didn't mind that much as I had made chip lead and was able to get down to the Final table and finished in 3rd place ($11.00).
As for Cash games, I have never really had a liking for them, they are a totally different monster! and a quick way to bigger losses, Sure I have tried them, not only on-line but also in Casino's and Pubs, and they do give the more advanced player an edge over most amateur players.
Many times I have walked away with 8 X, 10 X, or more X my original buy-in, but with there being no heads up play, I find they have no other purpose than to try and make as much money as possible and run. (lol).
I like the feeling of being Number One, the Top Dog, The Head Honcho, call it what you want, and find the pleasure of actually winning is far more important than the money you win.
Money comes and goes, but that feeling of being number 1 stays with you for a long time, I can get more pleasure from winning a free-roll, (usually around $20) than getting a place in a MTT that can pay as much as $100 or more.
I have experienced both and my best win was for 2nd place in a Live game and I won £200, I was gutted! I had spent 8 hours or more playing against 160 other players only to finish 2nd.
Sure it was free money but at the end of the day it's the winning that counts, not the money! Keep playing free-rolls, enjoy the game's and remember----
When the fun Stops, STOP!