I know where you are coming from, buckshot. I've been there before. I am a big loser in cash games right now. This is mainly because I have taken shots at higher stakes than I am rolled for again and again. One time, about a year ago I was on a nice run. I'd been playing micro stakes and tourneys and had my roll up to about $700. Being the genius that I am, I decided to take a shot at short stacking 10/20 NL... not a smart thing to do, but I was feeling especially good. I played very well. I was up to almost $2000 when I picked up AA. The game was short handed, so I decided to be a little sneaky. I min-raised preflop. I was raised, so I reraised and was called. The flop was 10 high with no flush or straight draws. I felt pretty good about this, so I made a pot sized bet. The villain raised... I tanked for a minute and shoved. He insta-called me. The cards turned up and he showed Q 10 for a pair of 10's with a Q kicker. I think I remember saying out loud... "Oh no!! Please don't do it to me again
pokerstars!! Not here!!!" the turn came ... it was a blank. Then, I bet you can't guess what the river was!! I'll give you a hint... Q! This guy caught 2 pair on the river and won a $4k pot. He took my bankroll by playing terribly. I couldn't believe it. If I had been properly rolled, I could have just reloaded at that table and kept playing. It was a bad beat. They happen all the time in poker. We just seem to notice them more when they are big enough to hurt! This is the reason to drop in stakes. The bad beats are obviously bothering you and you need to move to a level where they hurt less so you can build your confidence and work on leaks in your game. If you don't want to hear this from everyone, I would suggest not putting your business out there and asking for advice. It almost sounds like you want people to share in your misery. There are a lot of experienced players on here. Many have struggled with the same issues you are experiencing right now. A lot of us have been broke many times over and have had to learn the hard way to manage our bankrolls. This is nothing new to poker. There is so much information available from respected sources on bankroll management. All of them would advise you to drop to a lower level for a while until you can handle the variance at the level you are playing. I wish you the best of luck and all the success in the world... Just keep in mind that many of the players on here have been there before. I hate to see you go through the learning process that I've had to go through over the years.
