Everything is on the emotional side and it is very good that you reveal your feelings, you should do it in front of a specialist. Most of us go through such moments in life and very often we do not realize what we have entered but those around us see our behavior so when you are drawn to attention from many places that what you do is not normal you have to to listen and solve your problems. GL!
Take a break, rest. A break will allow you to improve your patience and concentration. Do not be sad. Poker, first of all, should bring you pleasure and this is, in my opinion, the basis for a successful game.