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As you may know I've been playing 50nl etc. over the past month and now I'm back down to 2nl to start a serious grind again. I'm up about 15$ over 6k hands. I just received a lump of rakeback for about $20 from my higher stakes games. This is obv good but is kinda ahhhh as I'm know rolled for 5nl while still enjoying the 2nl "grind". Onwards and upwards I suppose
that picture gives me the heeby jeebies
how can you enjoy NL2 more than NL50?
256 hands, coldest deck, some left over tilt from yesterdays cold deck and -$120/hr is born.
Back to 10nl, don't even think I played particularly bad. Some of the hands I tilt paid off villains when they called down with ridiculous shit and hit. But to just get beaten by so much shit... to just have so many two outters hitting back to back in two days. Feels bad man, some of the posts I made in this months thread were slightly arrogant posts, but for once I thought to myself that I might actually be not to bad at this poker thing, that I might actually make a decent player. I'd been thinking on a lot deeper level then I had at 10nl, I'd loosened up, played much better poker imo and my redline went sky high instead of that usual downward sloping bullshit that I'm used too.
I was running 15 buyins below EV last month at 10nl. When that finally began to cool off I managed to make the transition to 25nl. To finally make that goal that I'd had all summer felt great, but now this, EV doesn't look as bad because I kept getting it in on the flop etc, AA vs TT, T on the flop, crap like that. Tbf, I didn't play perfect, but I played good, I played the best I'd ever played imo and it's just so crushing to be back where I started. This time last year I was still messing around in the UK and CC freerolls, it felt good to make it all this way but this... BR is at about 500, and I'm in two minds whether to play a 2buyin stop loss game of 25nl tomorrow or just drop back down. Just so demoralising to lose it like this, to get so unlucky, for every donk with FD/GS to hit...
/rant
felt a bit better putting all that in words, better than kicking and breaking stuff anyway.