Apparently you are too self-critical.
And in general, money is not the main thing. The main thing is that poker brings you joy, pleasure and positive emotions.
I disagree about the donkey. We are all born and don't know anything in this world and don't have any skills. And it is in our hands to become a champion in any sport, or a professional in any kind of activity. It all depends on our perseverance and acquired knowledge. If you have chosen any activity, then you need to improve in this business and acquire the necessary skills, and this applies not only to poker.
I'm the worst poker player here... I have to be the worst, I haven't played in ages, I'm not sure I want to play anymore, I have many distractions at the mo, also just soooooooo tired!!!!!!