re: Poker & time to reall learn and stop winging it
My two cents. You said 4th or 5th event. That indicates to me that you're not tracking your wins, losses, cashes, buy ins etc. Out of frustration you feel like a losing player. You may well be. You may not. I would suggest tracking everything in a spreadsheet that you can later use to create easy to read visual charts and graphs. Over the course of many games, if you are the fish in these games, your negative and continuously declining profits will show you where you stand, and serve as added motivation to improve. Also you will be able to see if the new things you're learning and the new things you're trying are not working, and when they are. Tracking your profits and finishes can serve as a benchmark to show what is working for you and what is not.
I have to agree with what others have already said. A few games is way too small of a sample to make any determination. That being said, if you feel outmatched or out of place in these games, you are (a) probably right and (b) you are wise enough to realize and acknowledge it. Study. Read up on advanced tactics. Watch mid to high stakes poker streamers on Twitch. Learn from them. Utilize your own hand histories to go back and figure out where you went wrong and patch that hole. Hand by hand, day by day, you should improve, because you have the desire to. Although you'll need far more than a few games until you find out.
Best of luck and dedication to you.