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WhenSheSmiles
Rising Star
Bronze Level
Hi everyone.
I just want to point out that this post is more of a vent than asking for advice, but I definitely want the latter as well.
PLEASE give me any feedback you have in your mind after reading the post.
I want to start out with a quick intro about myself.
I picked up on poker about 2 yrs ago and thought it was all about bluffing after seeing the wsop on t.v.
I never knew about BR management, tilt, odds, fold equity, tells, etc.
I just played for fun. But, recently, about a year ago -- I started to read upon strategy for micro stakes, and the general things about beginning poker.
I learned some basics, yet my real problem (bankroll killer) was tilt and a degenerate bankroll management.
My solution ( or so I thought ) was to start with a big enough bankroll to reduce the tilt from losses in microstakes cash games.
It worked for a few days, and then I would get tilted (probably because I would play poker for days on end without much break time (8+ hrs until bedtime).
I would go to higher stakes and get owned by the sharks.
Then I would keep playing those stakes figuring there was no point in trying to grind out NL2 after the huge loss I had in NL50.
This crippling mindset, fueled with ego and an unwillingness to accept variance and the ridiculously micro limits I would be forced to play (due to experience and what I could afford), is still unfortunately present -- and I want to stop it.
I will no longer deposit huge amounts.
I will study the game more than I play it.
I will forget about the profits or losses, and focus on the quality of my decisions for each day.
I will stop obsessing over poker and admit that what I really desire at this point is not having a huge bankroll to blow, but a better approach to the game where I can prove to myself that the game is meant to be enjoyed and not feel consistenly depressed about due to my mistakes in handling my $$ and decisions at the tables.
My goals are:
1) next week starting with $25 bankroll
2) consistenly posting questions and viewing others' posts in CC.
3) stop degening away my bankroll
4) think of poker as something to enjoy, and not something which I am destined for.
Thank you very much for reading, and thanks in advance for any feedback regarding this post.
Sincerely,
WhenSheSmiles
I just want to point out that this post is more of a vent than asking for advice, but I definitely want the latter as well.
PLEASE give me any feedback you have in your mind after reading the post.
I want to start out with a quick intro about myself.
I picked up on poker about 2 yrs ago and thought it was all about bluffing after seeing the wsop on t.v.
I never knew about BR management, tilt, odds, fold equity, tells, etc.
I just played for fun. But, recently, about a year ago -- I started to read upon strategy for micro stakes, and the general things about beginning poker.
I learned some basics, yet my real problem (bankroll killer) was tilt and a degenerate bankroll management.
My solution ( or so I thought ) was to start with a big enough bankroll to reduce the tilt from losses in microstakes cash games.
It worked for a few days, and then I would get tilted (probably because I would play poker for days on end without much break time (8+ hrs until bedtime).
I would go to higher stakes and get owned by the sharks.
Then I would keep playing those stakes figuring there was no point in trying to grind out NL2 after the huge loss I had in NL50.
This crippling mindset, fueled with ego and an unwillingness to accept variance and the ridiculously micro limits I would be forced to play (due to experience and what I could afford), is still unfortunately present -- and I want to stop it.
I will no longer deposit huge amounts.
I will study the game more than I play it.
I will forget about the profits or losses, and focus on the quality of my decisions for each day.
I will stop obsessing over poker and admit that what I really desire at this point is not having a huge bankroll to blow, but a better approach to the game where I can prove to myself that the game is meant to be enjoyed and not feel consistenly depressed about due to my mistakes in handling my $$ and decisions at the tables.
My goals are:
1) next week starting with $25 bankroll
2) consistenly posting questions and viewing others' posts in CC.
3) stop degening away my bankroll
4) think of poker as something to enjoy, and not something which I am destined for.
Thank you very much for reading, and thanks in advance for any feedback regarding this post.
Sincerely,
WhenSheSmiles