Sounds like more than all you need some growing up to do. Thank god it was only losing your online bankroll. You could have fallen down being drunk or something and lost something much dearer. Believe me Ive seen it. A drunk friend of mine stumbled off a curb and cracked his head open.
Once you establish a nice bankroll it should never be going back. You start chasing and thats what hooks you up. Like Scotty says "take a walk away from the table, baby!". In the last final event at the WSOP
he had such a large stack that he could of walked away had a coffee and come back and be on the final table. But his ego started getting the better of him and he donked off his chips and ended up 11th. He says so himself. Take this as a lesson and take poker seriously. Not as just a game but a challenge.
I have 800% profit from my original buy in at Full Tilt. I hope to triple that by the end of the year. But only diligence, study, and organization will help me do that. Learn to use odds
in your favor. Learn to use your BR as a weapon. To do all that you got to remain sober.