I know exactly how you feel, I had exactly the same experience. I once lost my entire meager
bankroll and stopped playing poker for about a year or two. After logging in, I saw that my bankrol = 0, but I had a ticket for $214 that I had once won in a tournament. And this was my only opportunity to increase my bankroll without depositing any money, I played extremely tight just to get into the award-winning places, and finaly the blinds and antes ate me up. but the effect for me was amazing, From zero to hero
)
My advice is to play extremely tight until the bubble, then go crazy and enjoy the game.
BTW, choose your tournament wisely, i.e. regular or slow speed. The faster the tournament, the less chance you have of waiting for a good starting hand. DO NOT RUSH!!!