What you are going through is the very same thing I went through when I first started playing 13 years ago. Poker was everything to me, and I even dreamed about it, if I ever did sleep. I had the computer and if any one did get on it, I didn't let that last long. When I look back, I can see how poker turned me and my family up side down. At that time I don't know if I seen what was happening. If I did I didn't care because I done nothing about it. And believe me, I stayed mad most of the time, because I lost most of the time, and as time went by I got worse. All I thought about was all the bad luck I had, and I was not able to do anything about it because I didn't even know it was me that was the problem. It's kind of crazy, but I really hated poker but I could not stop either. So as time went by I become this person without much in side except the worst kind of confused anger. And that is what I brought with me when I joined CC 3 years ago. And at that time I felt like I had no other chose but to try something that I was not even sure if it would work. But I put everything I could into it because there was nothing else to do. So I probably drove everyone crazy here with as many questions as I could come up with that applied to my problems. And I took all the advice I got and used it without question. But do you know what come to the top of the pile first? TILT Someone told me that I had to deal with my inter demons before any thing would change. When I understood what that meant I done nothing else but work on getting my tilt problem under control. No joke, it took me 6 months to have it under control, but even to this day I have to check myself at times. I'm really sorry this is so long, GL to you