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Recently I was looking for advice as I feel I have put so much effort into improving (see last post), and after spending the
Recently I was looking for advice as I feel I have put so much effort into improving (see last post), and after spending the day reading through my 20th book 'Harrington on hold'em' I thought I would put some concepts into practice.
Only a 3rd way through the book, so not much to go on apart from play TaG and try and concentrate on ranges more, which I have read in previous books.
I started with $20 today and soon got up to $54, then I lost a few and entered 6 tournaments (MTT) at the same time, from 8 Game, OH8, Stud8, Razz, Horse, and plenty of Hold'em, leaving me with $3, I was miserable, depressed, angry, tilted (the normal feeling on a daily basis).
After losing a few, I wished death on everyone that beat me, said nasty things in chat - a habit I wish I could rid). Note that it's not about the money - which people type back "oh so much hate for $3" (etc), I feel the same in a freerol.
Currently listening to "The mental game of Poker" on 'Audible' (should probably buy the book) but not helping, maybe needs more time.
15 hours later I hit the bottle, I bough 70cl of Vodka and started whacking them back while listening to Connie Talbot in the background (she's actually pretty good now)...loaded up several tables and stated playing, made some real deep runs, 11th of 2000 in a $1, deep in some re-buy games of Omaha8 and final table Razz/Horse, plus some deep runs in Knockouts.
Mainly mini cashed and went out to horrendous bad beats only 10-20 places from big money - as usual...link below just one of them.
Now I wish his whole family rot and die in chat, I know I am sad - a disgusting human to say this, but I also wish I could change, it's an auto response I can't seem to help it!, help if you can advise! (not flame).
But I still did well, got up to like $60 even though I took very bad beats in several tournaments near the bigger money - Bcause I didn't care anymore.
I played cards through muscle memory and just raised big, didn't look at HuD, couldn't care less in most of them when I lost going in with the best, and went far in most. Ended up just shutting down windows when I lost and concentrating on the next, cause f**k poker and life right, as long as I had vodka and good music in the background. And with this got better results than I have had in weeks, finishing on $164.
So what is the deal?...I am a disgusting human, who wished misery on everyone at the table whilst being extremely drunk and finally getting some results.
Either I'm sh*t scared to play hands properly, or I just need some courage (in the vodka) to make me play without fear, with he best hands.
Time to get chat banned, become an alcoholic, thank Connie Talbot for her good music, and finally start winning.
Now to finish the bottle while I go deep in "The Big $3.30"....