Raizz
Rising Star
Silver Level
ok im not gonna be a jerk, im in recovery so I understand your mindframe and most of the thoughts running in your head. Poker is a game, nothing more, nothing less. PS will never let you play there again but really that is not the issue. THINK for a second. Really listen. Alcohol can and does make people with disorders say, think and do crazy things. First you need rehab, you really do. Look at yourself all over a thread in a chat forum defending your alcoholism and your suicidal behaviors, thoughts and actions because of a game. 200 dollars made you write that email? LOOK at yourself!!! Dont tell me you havent pissed away 200 dollars on a few runs to the package store or a pub. You need rehab, medication to stabilize your mood swings and most likely bi-polar depression, you fit the description of manic bi-polar disorder. You should get a job, take a year off from online poker. Poker shouldnt be your life, your only happiness, your poor wife must be starving for attention, think about your loved ones. In short get your life together before reality slaps you across the face and you wind up in jail or a mental ward.