Hello. As far as I can see (it also applies to me) superstition is not a good thing. Superstition is perceived most of the time as something bad that is going to happen, in fact it is a reaction to an action you are not sure you did well. If you are at peace with yourself that you did the right thing, the results don't affect you too much. If you were unsure, or had doubts, your superstition it's true, but that's not the torment, but the fact that you did something wrong and you knew it.
Most of us know what fair play is, but we still have something to do with the mentality of the game, with patience and with following the rules imposed or what we set ourselves.
The question remains in my mind: when will I start playing for real?🤔