All credit to you, you are more charitable than myself... I think maybe I should take a card from your book..be more laid back but it's hard when you have invested many minutes and $$ on a table to lay the trap and it springs back on yourself lol
the only reason why i'm so laid back is because i trust the process.
i play mtts so, i know that im going to downswing often. in fact, i'm on a 16 mtt downswing without a significant cash. on top of that, i don't have a lot of time to play and i'm lucky if i can play 1 mtt a day, but i can go days without playing. so, the 16 mtt downswing i'm on could've easily taken me weeks. imagine playing weeks and being on a downswing, getting beat, working your way up and just busting out shy of a deep final table run. even today, in an mtt, i thought it was going to be my game when i got it in for 47 bbs preflop with qq vs aks, a2s, and j7o and to i lost to a2 when it flopped to pair. i could've easily been up 150+ bbs and have a huge chance to make a final table run. instead, i was knocked down to 28 bbs. but, in the end, i'm still positive about the results. i said 'nh' and meant it, and i move on.
and the reason why i am able to do so is because i know what i'm doing works. i'm going to, eventually, play an mtt, make the final table, possibly make top 3, and potentially win it. but even just making a top 3 finish is going to help me profit and it'll make up for the downswing i'm on and then some. that's how i'm make a profit, which is my goal in mtts. my goal isn't to win the most hands or not get bad beats or whatever, it's to profit and, sometimes, i have to lose a lot in order to get there. but, if i'm profiting in the end, am i really losing? if i have to get through, for example, 35 [bad] beats before i finally play an mtt where i win 3 key flips in a row that earns me a top 3 place and a huge profit, then do those 35 beats even matter? no because, again, my goal is to profit.
as far as knowing what i'm doing works, it's all in my stats. my average field mtt field size is 283 players and top 8 players make the final table. that means a break-even player should make a final table 2.8% of the time. i've played ~480 mtts, which means a break-even player is making ~14 final tables. i've made 45 final tables, over 3x as many of a break-even player. if we look at mtt wins, a break-even player has ~2 mtt wins. i have 10 mtt wins, or 5x the expected rate. i'm steadily holding onto a $340-$350 profit, with an average buy-in of $1.12, while waiting for my next big deep run.
now, my sample size is a bit small so i'm sure things will even out a bit as i play more games but it's clear to see that what i'm doing is working. i also didn't post it to brag, but to say that i know what works for me, i've proven it to myself on numerous occasions. so, i can be more laid back because i don't concern myself with things that don't matter to me. i don't mind [bad] beats, i don't care about bad players getting lucky on me and crippling my stack or even knocking me out, or whatever. none of it matters to me because i know i'm going to profit in the long run. it's just a waiting game.
