I wish they were thoughts had by weak emotional people!!!!! I have had the thoughts often and not because I am weak emotionally!!! I live with chronic pain so bad at times I just want it to stop at any cost, even my life! The only reason I am still here is because I am very strong emotionally! But never had those thoughts over playing poker!I have never had such a thing regardless of the situation, I think those thoughts are had by weak emotional people who are not strong enough to look to the future and think that in this world there are people in much harder situations ... especially a sum of money lost at games, what nonsense, money can be made again in the wallet but life is not!
But did you stay at a Holiday Inn Express last night?I'm not a psychiatrist (I don't even play one on TV), but my advice is: quit poker, quit all poker forums, and get professional help.