S3mper
Poker Not Checkers
Loyaler
I hate to bring up the religion or faith aspect of your story but I think it may be dangerous not too because you may think "gods plan" or something along those lines.
Trust me praying and god had nothing to do with your success or your luck - Yes putting your last $100 on a $200NL game and coming away a winner is luck - I don't care how good you are or whoever does this is.
Furthermore allowing your gf/wife to blow through your bankroll when you are becoming a winning player is ridiculous and then after getting extremely lucky and winning with that $100 allowing her to play again,,,
If this story is true you may be the luckiest person in the world and I can't in good conscience say what you want to hear and that is "go for it"
As others have said it sounds like you have a gambling addiction - I wouldn't say "give up on your dreams and aspirations" but I would say if you are going to attempt to achieve them find a way to do it without risking your family or your bank roll but don't do so unless you can control yourself and have blessing from your loved ones.
Trust me praying and god had nothing to do with your success or your luck - Yes putting your last $100 on a $200NL game and coming away a winner is luck - I don't care how good you are or whoever does this is.
Furthermore allowing your gf/wife to blow through your bankroll when you are becoming a winning player is ridiculous and then after getting extremely lucky and winning with that $100 allowing her to play again,,,
If this story is true you may be the luckiest person in the world and I can't in good conscience say what you want to hear and that is "go for it"
As others have said it sounds like you have a gambling addiction - I wouldn't say "give up on your dreams and aspirations" but I would say if you are going to attempt to achieve them find a way to do it without risking your family or your bank roll but don't do so unless you can control yourself and have blessing from your loved ones.