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Lephos2019
Rising Star
Bronze Level
I have been a brick and mortar cash game player off and on for about 18 years now. One of my biggest weaknesses has been bankroll management, and a proclivity to be too aggressive with my bankroll by playing blackjack with my money. Even though I can technically beat the game of blackjack, I am impatient and tend to try to build too fast. This has caused some issues.
As a result of these years of struggling with the brick and mortar issue, I have been paying closer attention to my mental state while I play so that I can identify what triggers cause me to make unwise decisions.
So I have made deposits online both in the past and recently. And I can't win. It's as though I think of the game in a completely different way while I'm playing online than I do in a live cash game. I recognize that there is less physical information coming my way. In live games I do tend to rely a lot on physical information that players give off, but online that is not available. However, I also notice something else that affects my play. After a short time, it's like my brain starts to heat up and race. I find myself becoming impatient and it's like I feel like if I don't win a hand, I'm failing. I'm trying to convey this as clearly as possible, but it's difficult to find the words. And what I'm wondering is if it's possible that the electronic poker game might be triggering greater amounts of dopamine than would otherwise happen in the brick and mortar games. Does anyone else know what I'm talking about or can relate?
I had a back who was very happy to back me in brick and mortar cash games. But he backed me in some online games while I was out of town and I simply could not win. As a result, I have lost him as a backer for now. I thought he would be able to help me overcome this weakness, but I don't think he was able to look at the problem objectively. Any help or advice is appreciated.
As a result of these years of struggling with the brick and mortar issue, I have been paying closer attention to my mental state while I play so that I can identify what triggers cause me to make unwise decisions.
So I have made deposits online both in the past and recently. And I can't win. It's as though I think of the game in a completely different way while I'm playing online than I do in a live cash game. I recognize that there is less physical information coming my way. In live games I do tend to rely a lot on physical information that players give off, but online that is not available. However, I also notice something else that affects my play. After a short time, it's like my brain starts to heat up and race. I find myself becoming impatient and it's like I feel like if I don't win a hand, I'm failing. I'm trying to convey this as clearly as possible, but it's difficult to find the words. And what I'm wondering is if it's possible that the electronic poker game might be triggering greater amounts of dopamine than would otherwise happen in the brick and mortar games. Does anyone else know what I'm talking about or can relate?
I had a back who was very happy to back me in brick and mortar cash games. But he backed me in some online games while I was out of town and I simply could not win. As a result, I have lost him as a backer for now. I thought he would be able to help me overcome this weakness, but I don't think he was able to look at the problem objectively. Any help or advice is appreciated.