Originally Posted by Mr Sandbag
Vague post, but it sounds like the non-poker side of your life is a mess. Get that in order first. It's going to be nearly impossible to deal with poker mentally if you unhappy or really stressed out off the tables. Poker isn't a solution to life problems.
there are two things only in my post in which you could make that assumption from if not point out else where enlighten me so to speak.
1. the statement of people seeing me as a loser or wanting to take advantage of me.
This will not go away i am on the autistic specturm and thus have always been socially weak. I would say very few of my friends through out my life have ever had any other intentions then just using me for what they can get.
a lot of people like to look down on me and feel better then me and degrade me etc.
This is something that a lot of autistic people go through and will not stop regardless of weather I make millions from poker or any other source.
It would mean I would no longer have to stay in a job that was degrading me and would have the option to walk away which would be nice.
However Poker could not fix that issue it could only reduce it if I got successful enough at it.
2. the Mortgage comment I can see How since I did not fully explain that So briefly My financial situation is healthy but not secure. I will explain further to avoid confusion. I am not financially secure in the sense that I could quit work or find that finances is not something I have to think about.
However I have enough funds to keep me going for 2-3 months should I lose my job tomorrow.
when I compare a mortgage to day trading I mean that statement to apply for nearly everyone. The entire global economy is built upon interest on loaned money that never existed in the first place.
Whilst its not hugely exceptional, to do this but it is unusual I have obsessed with the idea of money before I was even ten. I was making spread sheets and doing calculations for if I put X amount of money away each year, and earned an interest rate of P etc how much money would I have after Y years.
the results were powerful and surprising. The economy is built upon debt and the repayment of that debt with interest compounding. the debt is growing exponentially.
I have also studied history related to this when other governments have done similar things EG the Romans diluted coins etc. I dont want to go into huge detail here because I do believe thats something that should go in another thread.
I will just say though the last position you want to find yourself in is in debt when the bubble bursts.
Whilst I do not endorse and am highly critical of all religions one thing I strongly agree with Muslims on is that interest Is flat out bad.
I have spoken to an Islamic colleague at work today about how Islamic Finance works it is interesting and I think should I get a mortgage I would probably prefer to do it by Islamic Finance. Although I will actually look at figures when that is relevant.