Dont get it too much deep as you do. This game needs to be practiced and learned. There are a lot of things that makes difference between live table and online poker room.
That makes the online poker more likable from players who cant hide their feelings or simulate some. The play is the same, but the outcome from others is different! Real poker game
is like a theatre, also you have to be the "big trick" there not the phantom who disappears at the begining of the tournament.
And from that ive red these months, the tournaments should be play safe at the early phase, no metter they are live or online.
I hope i helped you with something. Get more confidence, every player needs it to win, but it has not be big enough to cheat on you!