I don't feel a life is made off of a single thing, but life is a fullness. My goal is to find something that helps me fulfill other parts of my life. I have found that I am not good enough at poker to be, and not willing to go about the pains to become, a great poker player. I have a "feel" for the game in as much as I can get on a higher level than those without a clue, and see where they are when I am WILLING to be focused.
To get to the point, I knew for me, poker wasn't going to be what made me feel fulfilled, nor something I was passionate enough about pursuing that it would not consume me if I were to force my focus into it's study, and indeed it would be a bit torturous. I am a more creative and empathetic person. I feel fulfilled in making a connection to and helping other people. I have been a network technician, and I have done GD&T programming, I have been a Supervisor at a big box retailer, and worked on a fabrication shop floor, in all of which I made in multiples more money than doing the job I keep leaving those jobs to return to, and that's a direct care provider for troubled youth, and people with disabilities...
I have an inner drive to feel full, and little keeps me from doing the things I want living life the way I choose(other than high buy in tourneys, a nice house or a nice car lol) But I have the things I want and need, I feel I am growing and learning more everyday in the areas I find most interest in. I travel through life at my own pace, and keep my feet on the ground, but I'm happy, at least to the extent I feel I am capable, which is much greater now than other points in my life.
I struggled with college because of a combination of drinking and poker. Money was too easy on party poker
lol and I was in the casino grinding 4-8 limit everyday like a dummy, trying to beat rake for excitement.
But what I needed was life in my life, no specific thing, but to feel alive, and embody my life more, and not be such an agreeable bitch for lack of better words. I needed to come into my intelligence, and come into my own as a person, and not some nitwit hiding behind a barely +EV strategy against the absolute worst of the worst players that kept luckboxing rent money, drinking money, and more.
So make a life of life first, that's my advice, and put things in priority with that.
Best of Luck!