An excellent thoughtful post. Pretty meaty stuff, and you touch on a lot of intangible aspects of one's play that are difficult to articulate. Not only difficult to articulate, but even difficult to identify
within my own self.
I find that anything I put money into, I take rather seriously, freerolls
notsomuch, and perhaps that should stop, like a bad habit. It also depends on the freeroll. In the donkfests, usually not at all. In the CC's a lot more, because not only is there more $ to be won, but I care more about not looking like an idiot.
But basically, that's why I so infrequently enter the CC NLHE $ events. I don't feel confident, although I've cashed in probably my share or almost. But you play enough donkfests, and you begin to believe you lose because you suck. And of course, that defeatist attitude ingrains itself even when you are now playing better players, like here.
That said, I do agree that having a positive winning attitude helps a lot, but not sure how to get it with greater frequency. Back to NLHE, I know I'm not terrible at it. But when I start playing a game that I feel
I'm better at, like HORSE, O8, Badugi, I usually start out feeling
superior to everyone of the 'donkeys' at the table. And I am a winner player. So which came first, the chicken or the egg?
It's sort of a double-edged sword to take a game seriously. If you don't, you have a handy excuse for losing, not to mention doing nothing to improve your losing game. If you do take it seriously, and still lose, you feed that defeatist, loser self-prophecy. But bottom line, it is better in the longrun to take each game seriously, learn from your mistakes, and the win rate will take care of itself.
Great food for thought, Norm. Perhaps these thoughts on your recent success has taught me how not
to approach any game, namely in haste, and a 'whatever happens happens' attitude. Keep up the good work!