Getting out on the FT bubble in the 100k GTD, mental game
So yesterday, I was lucky enough to win a satty to play the sunday 100k GTD tourney, about 7 hours in, there are 18 left, 6 million chips in play and i have 1.5 million, huge chip leader.
From 27-18 players I went all in nearly every hand to steal the blinds that meant so much to the players that I had been needing them so much (i had ~950k, second at the table was around ~200k), so if I got called, no big deal, but huge deal to them.
I get to the final 2 tables, and am not going all in, but raising my regular range, because the player to my right and left had about half my stack... I play super lag towards this inflection point, so I'm raising any 2 reasonable cards, and some garbage in between.
I'm getting played back at a lot from some short stacks (them reshoving widish and what not). My regular strategy is out play players post flop, I generally hate getting it in pre-flop with just about anything aside from the obvious hands. I double one player on a cooler hand with two pair vs a higher rivered 2 pair, and I lose a flip with AKs vs 66. And I'm down to average stack, around 500k.
Maybe it was the fact that I had lost about 2/3s of my stack or that the tournament had gone on for more than 7 hours and I was left with 18ish BB which I know when I'm playing my A game is PLENTY to work with. But a ~420k stack open jams and I have 77 and am feeling impatient and annoyed. I call, he has KsQs flop comes Js Ts Th... FML, Qh 3s... I now have about 76k left in chips down from when I was at 1.5m to start the table. On the button I get KTs with blinds at 12.5k/25k. Just about as good as it gets, I shove, SB rejams and he has JJ flop come A T K ... brick... J... OUT.
So I ended up winning 1.1k which was okay, but getting that close and playing my A game the whole tournament aside from the 18 left to 10, was pretty severe mentally. I've gotten out with Aces vs 20%ers before on final tables before, but getting that close to a possible 25k payday really had me 'tilted'.
Over around 3k tournaments with an ABI of $19 (varying anywhere between 5.50s to 109), I've had a somewhat sustainable ROI of 53%, and have yet to tilt since my last go at poker 6 months back. Until, yesterday. I went ahead and punted off about a 4th of what I've worked months on (do the math, its quite a bit ).
Anybody go through anything like this? I mean, I know getting impatient after losing most of my chips was the downfall, I know my game to be strong and very profitable overall, but mentally aside from taking a break, what should be the best approach?
Thank you in advance for anyone who took the time to read this any reply