If you're not having fun, withdraw funds and find another activity. Yes, activity, being blunt, you are not (it only seems), putting in the effort to learn and earn, and it (seems), like it's not fun LOSING.
There is so much more to poker than just your cards, and coaches like myself are quick to point that out (when you are in a hand or not in a hand). There is lots to read, lots to comment on, and of course, plenty of free instructional poker videos that may allow you to refocus your attention on the important aspects of the game, make you a better player, a winning player, and most of all, a fun loving happy player again.
Check out my 90+ videos on YouTube, it's free, all I ask is that you subscribe and you will be notified when a new one is posted. Good Luck if you stay and try to learn to earn.