I have had a big losing infact I lost all my money on Pokerstars. I lost it most likely because I bluffed a lot and got caught and I had some bad beats not getting flushes etc, getting beat by higher kickers. I lost all of my bankroll which i had left aroun 41 dollars. I didn't really care because I didn't deposit one cent of that 41 dollars I made all of that money. Yesterday I didn't even care if I lost all of it for some reason it wasn't like I was going to cash out. I played every hand and lost a lot of money just limping in. I don't know I guess I'm getting kinda bored of poker.
Man.. there are so many things wrong with this is it amazing. Do you see them? I just want to help, not hurt... so take these words in that tone.
I had some bad beats not getting flushes etc
You need to re-examine the definition of bad beat, and you need to do some thinking about when it is ok to chase flushes.
getting beat by higher kickers.
This happens most often to me when I play hands like A6 and the flop comes AAX. Sound familiar? That is why you want BOTH cards to be good, or work together for you before you even enter the hand. Brush up on starting hand strategy.
I lost all of my bankroll ... 41$
Hey $41 bankroll with no deposit is really really cool! Good job. But where were you playing? $41 is good for 01/02 cash on stars or for 1 or 2 dollar SnG and tourneys. But I have a feeling you might have lost it a little more quickly, at a bit higher stakes, yes? Bankroll Management is a foundational pillar for winning poker.
I played every hand and lost a lot of money just limping in.
Loose passive play is a very common form of TILT. Expect to lose when you play this way... and more quickly than you might imagine just "limping in". There's always that top pair showing up, and then the guy drawing out, right? Tilt control is another foundational pillar.
...Yesterday I didn't even care... ...I guess I'm getting kinda bored of poker.... ...didn't really care...
When I say all this stuff along with things like "It's just a game" "It's not really big money" etc... I am fooling myself into thinking I am not really a loser. Now "loser" is a terribly stigmatic word but for me it has often been true. Until I came to grips with that, I wasn't able to improve.
I wish you the best. Take a break, and if you come back... come back stronger!
cAPS