I'm not feeling confident in my game
I'm 20 years old, played poker with friends like once a month for like 2 years.
about 4-5 months ago i've decided I want to take it to the next level, trying to profit from it. I began learning and reading, playing online real money
MTT's mostly (My favorite game). I've had some deeps runs, I'm mostly busting before the money, or a short time after the bubble explodes, but I have made a couple of final tables and top 100 out of 1.5-2k players mtts.
I've also started recently playing live mtt's localy (relatively small ones, about 50-70 players). I've played just 2 live tournaments, the first i've finished 11 out of a field of about 55. and today I've made it to the final table and busted 9th out of a field of 60+.
What I came here to say, and get your opinions about it, is that I'm not feeling like im actually playing well. I don't know if it's just a confidence thing or a real problem. I feel like I'm being a nit, and just running good these 2 tournaments.
I don't recall making more the 2-3 moves during the whole tournament (I'd say I played about 15-20% of hands, perhaps 10-15 hands or so.
During the tournament I've tried noticing patterns and physical tells
, but I kept losing concentration and just playing the hands i've been dealt and nothing more.
Do yo guys mind sharing your opinion about this? maybe you've experienced the same thing in the past? I'm feeling really insecure and discouraged to continue attending these live events.