Tilt is really a hard thing to deal with, and I came here tilted very bad. I had so much negative thinking going on that I could not focus on anything but my own anger. I could not play any poker because for one I had very little left in my BR and that was at FF For the other, I did not want to play because I was worried about what would happen if I just went off on it all and start breaking things like my computer. My anger was about that bad, and I know it showed it's self for others to see. Like my family who could not understand any of it, but I sure talked about it to family members until they let me know that they did not want to hear all the negative shit I was spiting out. So I stopped that and started talking more to people online about my shitty life that poker caused in the first place. Well it was not long before those online people didn't want to hear it either. My tilt was so bad then that it felt like a ton of shit was on my back, and all if it was nothing but all the bad beats and stupid plays I made and I was losing whole buy ins as fast as I could go. I was just mad at the whole world and I didn't really know what to do to fix the tilt problem, even if there really was a way to fix the crap I was in. I sure didn't believe there was so I just held onto my negatives for awhile longer because I didn't really want to let go and then have nothing left to blame for the things I thought was the whole problem. Well about that time I found CC and I hoped to find some answers that would get me back on track and it would be just that simple I was sure. Well it was not simple at all, and I had to do like everyone else. Learn the game or keep on tilting and do the same things hoping for better results. I always say you either learn the game or get run over by the players who are learning the game. I done a lot of things here to stay busy so I didn't think about all this no more than I had to. I got into SMC and that gave me some things to do, and I worked hard to get into the Freeroll Club. About this time I started to notice some changes happening, but my tilt was still with me but not the same as it was but I had to get rid of it all or it may come back any minute. But with all this said, the way I got the tilt under control was a direct result of a man's simple words even if I didn't understand them right them. He told me only twice that I had to deal with my enter demons before things would start to get better. I didn't really understand those words but I made up my mind that I was going to do whatever it took to change and remove my tilt from my life and my game. Once I took some real time to think about those demons it come to me that my demons were all the crazy shit I had been holding on to and my anger was still bad, and I knew it had to go or nothing would get better. Ok I'm about done now but I want to say one more thing. I like to tell new members that CC put me on a no tilt diet for 6 months before I needed to work on other things. Well I really did that and it has and will be with me. and it took a lot of work to get any where with it, but I did it all over and over in my mind and telling myself all the positive things I could find. And all this time I was on CC asking questions about every thing I could think of. and all the advice I got from CC members is still with me today and I keep adding more to my game and life when I find it, and believe me there are things here that can change your whole life if you let it happen, I did and I have not tilted about anything in over 2 years. Bad Beats and other things that may get me mad and could cause some of the old crap to come back are not a part of my life anymore. And even if ten bad beats came at me one after the other, they would roll off my back like water off a duck. I can't let negative thinking get me down, and tilt is not part of my game anymore. And That Is The Whole Truth