Hi adlersss and welcome to Cardschat. I'm sorry if I missed your introduction. I agree with matiascecci1990 100%, But I would like to add a thing or two.
First of all, you need to post questions here, and in those questions, you need to tell us what's the problem. Then we can either advise you or give you our opinion. So let me stop you right here. There is no stupid or weird questions here at CC. If someone told you that your questions are either one of those, or any kind of negative remark, this is day one for you to start learning. CC will not allow anything like that. We are here to help you, not to down grade you.
The next thing is that you might as well make up your mind to start at the bottom, take small steps, set some short term goals that are easy to reach, and set at least set one long term goal that you can reach by using the short term ones like stepping stones to reach it.
Next of all, learn what BRM is and how to use it to keep you from going broke. Yes I could tell you the answer for that, but it's a question you need to post and get advice from more players than me.
This last one should be at the top of the list, because it is so important that you can't even play good poker without controlling it. TILT has no place in your game. If you allow it to be part of your game, it will control you, and all it's good for is to cause you to lose many BRs. It's not easy to overcome, but believe me you can do it. I have and many others here have too.
That's it, but adlersss I could go on and on. But I don't want to over load your plate, and even the things I've told you should not be worked on all at the same time. BABY STEPS GL to you