I've finally learned my lesson...for good!
[This is a long one, mostly gibberish for me to reflect on later, scroll to the colored log in the middle to get the end result]
Well, as if going bust with my initial $50 deposit (where I got the $3 from) wasn't enough, I slipped up once again. Remember last update I had $61? Well I went on tilt and it got as bad as
I lost like...7-10SNG's in a row, and then it hit me. I know I always tell myself "don't go on tilt, just play like you've been playing, and you'll be fine", but that shit just isn't enough. You need to develop a rock solid resolve...a poker mindset that won't break if you want to play this game with success.
The problem is, when I have great success in games (when Im up @ the cashier), I start to play extra hands, and before I know it, I'm the low stack (and lost my profits). That...or I play the same amount of hands, but because I'm doing real well, its alot easier to click that call button or try to bluff when theres no point in risking it in the first place. All I base the bluff on is...well, I'm not sure, but it has something to do with me saying "one more time" or "**** it".
So, I smacked myself pretty good, and said "**** it, if I don't develop the mindset I need for this game now, Ima be screwed later...if later ever comes at this rate". I went ahead and believed in my abilities, stuck to what I said and entered 2 Sng's. One was $3.4 18 seat, the other was $3.4 27 seat. The rest is history.
Starting BR: $3.00 - 11/8/2008
Current BR: $75.98 - 11/9/2008
11/8/2008: +$17.18[+672%] [New BR - $20.18]
11/9/2008: +$18.80[+95%] [New BR - $38.98]
11/10/2008: +$34.00[+95%] [New BR - $75.98]
-Now playing $3.40 18-27 seat MTT SNGs-
I placed first in the 18 seat, and second in the 27. I could've placed first, but I said "**** it" because I was more than satisfied. When it was over, I realized that I broke the new resolve I swore I now had. How? 1st, by entering those SNG's. 2nd, by not sticking it out until the end and taking second.
The second might not seem like a big deal, but that falls under what I'll call the "**** it" mindset. I want to destroy every bit of that garbage in me weather or not it relates directly, or indirectly. And Yeah...it probably seems like I'm being overly dramatic with this whole mindset thing, but I'm not. Most all of my losses come from stupid decisions, and my wins come when I keep my kool. I didn't take any chances when I played those last 2 SNG's. Does that mean I didn't bluff at all? No All-ins? Not by a long shot.
Going All in with the right prem hands shows you aren't afraid, though you play tight. That comes in handy when your @ the final table and start to bluff. You need to bluff when you play SNG's when you get to the final table to steal blinds unless your blessed by the card gods that day. You need to watch it though, takes a bit to get the hang of it (I used to play remember). Every now and then, its a good idea to limp in, and bluff a LITTLE. Why? well, you get to test your competition, and play with their heads. Either you get called on your bluff, dont lose enough to hinder your chances of winning and learn how to capitalize on it. Or it works and you take the benifits and further capitalize on it from there. Be cautious though, mindset is very important here...its soooooo easy to get carried away.
All that about game play is my opinion, and at the end of the day, I realize my "SNG style" really isn't too tight at all. Its more inbetween Tight/agressive. Depending on the situation, it can lean a LITTLE toward the agressive side. I'll make a full style analysis when I've made some REAL progress. It's only forward from here.
Remember... mindset, mindset, mindset. Don't just say "I agree", "Yeah I know", "your right" and then go say "ahhh....one more time" @ the table. Thats exactly how you go bust. Apply it, and apply it now.
Hopefully I get to $100 tonight.
Edit: think I messed up the numbers a bit, but they're close enough.