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Caryn
Enthusiast
Silver Level
Hi all, so here is the cliff's notes on my story:
1) Many years ago, I spent a year making a living playing basement tournaments. I dreamed of playing in the wsop someday, and poker was just something I loved everything about. So I'm not entirely new, but maybe a little rusty because after that year... (hanging out with different crowds, etc.) it's been a long time since I played.
2) A new casino just opened up 10 minutes down the road and just for fun I thought I'd splurge a whopping $50 at a ($2-4 Limit) table. Turned that into $300 and was *hooked*!
3) So I made it a daily hobby of mine, playing for a few hours. At first I jumped between 2-4 Limit and 1-3 NL, then eventually stuck with NL only. I never really chased big profits, was happy to walk with 50% profit or so.
4) That's how I turned $50 into $1500 in just a few weeks.
5) But that f***ing downswing hit, and it hit hard. Apparently I must've gotten pretty tilted because that seemed to last a few days. Despite practicing good bankroll management, I still hit a series of bad losses and now I'm back down to $0.
6) If I built up that bankroll once, I know I can do it again but not in this state of mind. So I'm taking a nice long break to get my head right.
Lol it's gonna be kinda hard to go through that break because it has become such a routine to head down there every morning after the kids go to school, but if I try to jump back in now I know I'll just be making poor choices and chasing what's gone.
My goal is to become a better poker player. To play the long game. To not lose myself to the thrill of gambling-- including the highs of winning and the depression of losing. I *have* that kind of patience & self control/discipline yet I'm still here asking for tips on what kind of goals I should accomplish before I decide to hit the felt again?
Would anyone suggest playing "free poker" (like that WSOP App?) or just cut it out entirely for a few days/weeks?
1) Many years ago, I spent a year making a living playing basement tournaments. I dreamed of playing in the wsop someday, and poker was just something I loved everything about. So I'm not entirely new, but maybe a little rusty because after that year... (hanging out with different crowds, etc.) it's been a long time since I played.
2) A new casino just opened up 10 minutes down the road and just for fun I thought I'd splurge a whopping $50 at a ($2-4 Limit) table. Turned that into $300 and was *hooked*!
3) So I made it a daily hobby of mine, playing for a few hours. At first I jumped between 2-4 Limit and 1-3 NL, then eventually stuck with NL only. I never really chased big profits, was happy to walk with 50% profit or so.
4) That's how I turned $50 into $1500 in just a few weeks.
5) But that f***ing downswing hit, and it hit hard. Apparently I must've gotten pretty tilted because that seemed to last a few days. Despite practicing good bankroll management, I still hit a series of bad losses and now I'm back down to $0.
6) If I built up that bankroll once, I know I can do it again but not in this state of mind. So I'm taking a nice long break to get my head right.
Lol it's gonna be kinda hard to go through that break because it has become such a routine to head down there every morning after the kids go to school, but if I try to jump back in now I know I'll just be making poor choices and chasing what's gone.
My goal is to become a better poker player. To play the long game. To not lose myself to the thrill of gambling-- including the highs of winning and the depression of losing. I *have* that kind of patience & self control/discipline yet I'm still here asking for tips on what kind of goals I should accomplish before I decide to hit the felt again?
Would anyone suggest playing "free poker" (like that WSOP App?) or just cut it out entirely for a few days/weeks?
change instances of free poker into a link to https://www.cardschat.com/strategy/free-online-poker-game/