T
tree88
Rising Star
Silver Level
i visited my usual casino today.i had 100$ to buy into a 1$-2$ NL cash game.i was feeling good and was anticipating a positive outcome to the session. i couldn't have been more wrong as you will see.i just want to say that this isn't easy for me to share with everyone .my pride really got hammered to hell on this one.and im guessing that everyone knows how bad that can sting . heres the long and short of it....this is the 11th hand dealt since i sat down all folds until now,im two seats in front of the BB.im dealt As Js first guy limps i bet 8$ and get 3 callers. the flop comes Jd 4c 7s.its checked to me and i bet 20$(thinking i might win that small pot right there) all but one guy fold.the turn comes complete air like the 9h.i count out 40$ and while um pushing it in all i remember thinking is "this should end it right here" that's all the thought i gave it.he calls. im now confused as the river comes 2? and like a complete moron i say to myself "i have him out kicked"but unconvinced about everything but my stupidity, for some reason instead of checking i bet 10$.he calls.i cant believe i didn't check.he turns over pocket jacks.i wanted to slap the shit out of myself .i was so pissed off but i managed to say" good hand" and somehow maintained a neutral outer appearance. i was so far beyond tilt though. a couple hands later i limped in with K 10 spades.the flop was As 6s 7h so i pushed my last 17$ all in and of course missed the flush to complete my total self destruction.i think i said "wow" as i stood up and somewhat calmly walked out of the card room while steam must have been shooting out my ears.it took me a few hours to get myself off the ledge so to speak.i just hope i learned from this and never do anything like this again. im open to anything anyone has to say about this so please feel free.