i might be wrong here but it sounds like ur getting frustrated with playing the large amount of ppl in freerolls and not having too much success in cashing in em. I can understand because u got to get to like less than -1% of that huge field to cash and thats unreal.
I honestly think it would be hard for a beginner to grind 20, 50 or even a few hundred playing micro low stakes if u deposited because too many things could go wrong where ud lose that $ quick. ud lose it either because u don’t have a sound game or ud get tilted 1 time and make bad decisions or ud go up in stakes too fast, I mean the list goes on and on of how u could lose that $.
If ur a beginner like u say u are, id recommend (and I know a lot of ppl would disagree with me here) is to continue with ur freerolls and playchip tables. I type this because if ur starting out, u really shouldn’t be worried about how much u win or lose but question whether u are making the right poker decisions at the table. Id say play the freerolls and playchip tables and use sound poker strategies and see if u can improve ur game. And besides, if ur doing the playchips and freerolls, its all house $ anyway. Lol.
Another reason for playing the playchips tables and freerolls is oddly enough is that ur gonna be playing the same ppl that u would be on the playchip tables at a microlim table. I mean the same ppl, and if theyre not the same ppl, the ppl at the microlims play just as bad or believe it or not even worse than the playchipers who have been playing the playchip tables for fun for yrs. so theres no real reason to deposit. A reason I could see u depositing was if ur an intermediate or advanced player who doesn’t or need learn basic strategies and is ready to go play middle to hi stakes.
Id say relax, have fun and enjoy learning poker. if ur like forget that, I wanna just play poker for cash, id tell u to forget online poker and (if ur old enough) go down or make a trip to ur local casino and play. get a mbrs card and play a few lo buyin 50 or 100$ tourns and get some real poker experience and enjoy urself.
But regardless of what u do when it comes to playing cash online poker for beginners ill be able to look up ur online stats at pokerprolabs or wherever and about 90% of the time the beginner is gonna have a red graph that has a sharp nose dive because of the reasons I mentioned.
so id stick to the playchips and freerolls to avoid having to pay for lessons u coulda learned for free. try not to get frustrated and have fun playing poker.