Back in the old days, my wife showed me how to download and play at a real poker site
, It was Party Poker
and I loved that site, but before it was over I had every poker site I knew of downloaded on my computer, And that was the beginning of a family war. I just took over the computer because poker was more important than anything I knew of. Then came the selling of everything I could find to keep playing. I see many like this here. They think just like I did. There was no doubt that I soon would be playing with the big dogs, and getting rich. It's sad when crap like that get deep into the brain and that person may go through some really hard times when he always disappoints himself. Its kind of like going to the drug dealers and everyone puts up that front and acts like you are kin. And they are all over you hoping they might get something. There was nobody to bother you at least when the big guy came around, who also treated you like a king or something. That slowly went away as the money stack got smaller. And when it did run out, you was showed the back door. You are not paying so you are not staying. Anyway things got bad around the house, nobody talked very much except when they all ganged up on me and it was give it up or I was getting my ass kicked. And believe me they could do it too. So I took my chances in the yard for awhile. But what had been done was deep and never could be fixed. I just went a little crazy and did not care about anything and stayed gone a lot of the time. Somethings are not worth having if it causes that much trouble. In some ways, I wish it could all be taken back but that;s not how it works. I want to add this and stop. The things I'm talking about is for real. I used drugs and I was one of the worst. street person. I would do anything to get my drugs. then one day I told my wife to take me to the hospital. I had a few cloths and needed nothing else. I just hoped I would drop dead. The last thing my wife said was for me to get out and she didnt even know me anymore.That's hard to deal with, but I had no hard feelings I was getting what I should get. But that was the turning point in my life. And now I been sober for 6 years.