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incrediblemindset
Rising Star
Bronze Level
Hi what I have to say is kinda a long story and thank you in advance for reading.I am currently stuck on if I should quit poker or not. I am currently 25 years old and make about 1500$ a month at a reg 9 to 5 that I hate so bad it kills me! Not that i dont like the work it's just i hate being at a place for 8 hours only looking forward to the 3 breaks we get and having to do this everyday makes me go crazy! So I stared playing poker for over 2 years now and I'm not sure if I'm in love with the game or the idea of it being a way out of my miserable life! I can play for 18 hours straight and never get bored. I use to love saving my checks before poker but now even when I save up my money I cant spend it on anything accept poker.... I dont care about new clothes,going out or even getting a new car. I even pushed all my friends and girls out of my life so I can have more money for poker and i also went as far as sleeping in my car so I dont waist money on a room! I do make sure my Bill's are paid but every extra 1$ I have I go and play poker with... I do this because I convinced myself that yea even tho I keep losing I believe I'm becoming a better player it's like I'm investing in myself I see it as. Yea I do win and I do play good but when I win I jump up to bigger tables chasing that dream to finally let me quit my job that I hate so bad! And its not just my job I'm at I just hate being stuck at a place for 8 hours! No matter the work it seems like... Playing poker everday for 10 hours a day sounds like paradise and for once I feel I have a chance out of my boring life but I want advice if i should quit or keep going? Should i stop spending my money on poker because it will never happen or should I chase it ? I'm asking because I'm afraid I'm going to do this for a big part of my life and miss out on life. I hate the feeling of losing all my extra money and having to wait till next pay check to try again! I hate it so bad that I got a second full time job so I get another check to play with. I'm only sleeping at max 3 hours everyday that's how bad I want this. I feel like if I can get some advice on this if it's a bad or good idea I'll be able to handle the losses more and not ignore everyone at work when I lose.. before you give me any advice you need to know i know i can live a normal life and work like everyone else but i dont want that I naturally have a desire to do something at all times I cant live a normal life doing the same thing everyday it kills me. Playing poker gives me hope that life will not always be like that.