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wetyeti
Rock Star
Silver Level
This past Saturday I went to the casino and had a killer session. I bought in for a total of 100 at the 1-2 nlhe table (40 is the max buy in,when you get to under 20 you can buy in for 60. Weird) and after 11 hours I left with 1060. I got home and went to a home game, 50 nlhe and left with 220. Awesome day. I got to bed late and slept in on Sunday, getting out of bed just in time for all the action online.
I was riding high and feeling close to unbeatable. In hindsight, I should have been a bit more aware. Generally I feel real calm and focused before I sit down for a session online. This time I was feeling hyped up and really impatient. I stuck to my BRM, at first, and immediately started 8 SnGs and MTTS. Way more than I ever play.
Add the fact that I was horrifically hungover and started my Sunday with a few mimosas so I had a solid buzz going.
I played for hours, hours and hours. I started losing and kept losing.
"Hey", I thought, "I'm a better player than the donks at these stakes, I'll move up a bit"
And thats how it got really bad. I started playing 10 and 20 percent of my BR in the SnGs. At least that type of BR mismanagement can't last very long so the suffering was over pretty quick.
I spent 4 months to quadruple my bankroll. I lost it all in 15 hours. Well, not all, I've got 12 bucks on Stars.
After shutting down the computer I was completely defeated. I went to bed and just laidthere for awhile wondering WTF I just did. At work today I was feeling the same and thinking I should just delete PT3, bodog, FTP and Stars. Why should I even be playing poker? It just plain sucks to lose all that.
Tonight, when I got home, I was still feeling, well, tilty. I didnt lose a heap of cash. I'm in no danger of missing any bills or other necessities. In other words, I'm financially secure, but I was really loathing myself. Why? I played a game poorly. And lost. Would quitting poker really be the best thing to do? Will it mean I'm a gambling addict if I keep playing? These were some of the questions swirling around my head. I'm not sure but I have a feeling some other players have had similar thoughts.
Anyways, I won't be quitting poker, for the most part, I've truly enjoyed playing. Even on some of the losing sessions. So instead of quitting I started to plug leaks. This weekend being the first. I made a list of all the factors I could perceive that aided in this weekends loss. I havent looked at the PT3 stats, not quite ready for that one, yet.
I've never had a session like that and I have to admit that regardless of variance or bad beats or whatever we prefer to call it, this was my own damn fault. I broke just about every rule for myself...... Played drunk, played out of my BR limits, played hungover, played too many tables.
And if its my fault theres a good chance I can fix it.
If you read this far, thanks. See you at the tables!
I was riding high and feeling close to unbeatable. In hindsight, I should have been a bit more aware. Generally I feel real calm and focused before I sit down for a session online. This time I was feeling hyped up and really impatient. I stuck to my BRM, at first, and immediately started 8 SnGs and MTTS. Way more than I ever play.
Add the fact that I was horrifically hungover and started my Sunday with a few mimosas so I had a solid buzz going.
I played for hours, hours and hours. I started losing and kept losing.
"Hey", I thought, "I'm a better player than the donks at these stakes, I'll move up a bit"
And thats how it got really bad. I started playing 10 and 20 percent of my BR in the SnGs. At least that type of BR mismanagement can't last very long so the suffering was over pretty quick.
I spent 4 months to quadruple my bankroll. I lost it all in 15 hours. Well, not all, I've got 12 bucks on Stars.
After shutting down the computer I was completely defeated. I went to bed and just laidthere for awhile wondering WTF I just did. At work today I was feeling the same and thinking I should just delete PT3, bodog, FTP and Stars. Why should I even be playing poker? It just plain sucks to lose all that.
Tonight, when I got home, I was still feeling, well, tilty. I didnt lose a heap of cash. I'm in no danger of missing any bills or other necessities. In other words, I'm financially secure, but I was really loathing myself. Why? I played a game poorly. And lost. Would quitting poker really be the best thing to do? Will it mean I'm a gambling addict if I keep playing? These were some of the questions swirling around my head. I'm not sure but I have a feeling some other players have had similar thoughts.
Anyways, I won't be quitting poker, for the most part, I've truly enjoyed playing. Even on some of the losing sessions. So instead of quitting I started to plug leaks. This weekend being the first. I made a list of all the factors I could perceive that aided in this weekends loss. I havent looked at the PT3 stats, not quite ready for that one, yet.
I've never had a session like that and I have to admit that regardless of variance or bad beats or whatever we prefer to call it, this was my own damn fault. I broke just about every rule for myself...... Played drunk, played out of my BR limits, played hungover, played too many tables.
And if its my fault theres a good chance I can fix it.
If you read this far, thanks. See you at the tables!