I have a simular problem compunded by the fact that I can afford it. LOL
I have deposited 500.00 since Jan 1st and have cashed over 2000.00.
I'll deposit 50 and concentrate on small tourneys, build the bankroll and move up to bigger tourneys and continue to build.
Somewhere along the line I donk off my winnings, either in cash ring games or attempting high dollar re-buys when my A-game isn't 100% or my game is in a negative swing.
Watching the bankroll grow rocks! Watching it get smaller is depressing. But that is the nature of poker, your bankroll will go up and it will go down. Trying not to let the depression influance your game is difficult, going on tilt, trying to catch-up usually adds to the negative rather than the positive.
It's going to be differant for everyone, the key is staying within reasonable limits of what you can afford. Pay the rent, the bills, make sure baby does not go without new shoes, remember you are participating in a gambling sport, it's a hobby one that can be addictive and seduce you into gambling too much. Never invest based upon what you could win but rather on what you can afford to lose.
If you feel your losing too much, lower your limits, invest less, read more books, study more pros, increase your math skills, develop good bankroll management. Patience is a key element in poker, not only in one session at one table, but also throughout your life, your whole poker carrer.
There will be winning streaks, and losing streaks, some short, some long, some losing streaks will be so long you'll wonder why the heck you play this game. You might even quit for a while or for ever, you might come back or weather the storm. Like bad beats you remember the bad luck more often than you do the good luck. It is what it is.
You can't expect to pick up the game of poker and become an instant Daniel Negranu or Doyle Brunson. There are millions of us playing and only a 100 or so get to the top, you have to have reasonable expectations and give yourself reasonable limitations and work from there.
Uh oh I just realized I must sound like I'm preaching. I don't write this just for you or others as much as I do for myself as well. A reminder that I am human and have my faults, I must like anyone recognize them and adjust for them. I WANT SUCCSESS NOW! But realisticly I have to prepare for the long haul.