The more I play, the worse I get...
I've never been a very successful poker player. Truth be told, over my 7 years at the tables, I've always lost. I've had dreams and fantasies of turning this into career but those are long gone and now I just play for fun every once in a while. The thing is, I don't think I'm a bad player. My problem is that my brain is just not built for this game.
I've noticed a pattern in the way that I play. When I make my return after a long break from the tables I feel energized and ready to go! I feel strong! I play well and make the right calls! I just feel completely in sync with everything that is happening. More importantly, I'm always focused!
After the first few games pass, that's when things start to go bad for me. The focus starts to fade and I begin making poor decisions. I get into self destructive pattern and usually get pissed off and take another break. It's a never ending cycle. I don't know what happens but I just get really bored. Unlike the first few games where all I have open is the table and that's all, as I play more often... I'm opening up YouTube, going on the internet, thinking of things completely unrelated to the game. Even when I tell myself to focus I slip back into these patterns! It's killing me because I think I'm capable of playing well, I just make too many mental stumbles for some reason.
Anyone go through this problem? Any suggestions?!