(This is a slightly different take on a bad-beat story. Proceed with caution if these things bore you)
I'm struggling with a streak of losses that I've noticed are affecting my confidence. I just left a 6-person table where in 30 minutes, I got QQ 3 times, KK once and AKs once. I had some other decent hands as well. Got each of these hands busted.
I realize this happens. I know there are streaks of bad luck, I understand that just because I have the best hand pre-flop means diddly-squat about what happens once the community cards start falling and I don't have the cards to continue. It was made worse, though, by me actually (in each of the five cases) having the best hand even after the flop - but being outdrawn on the turn or the river. Two cases of gut-shot straights, one flush and two top pairs.
The reason I left the table wasn't because I was having a bad streak, necessarily. I have the bankroll to live through that, and I wasn't experiencing the typical sort of tilt that some people may go through at that point; chasing poor hands, desperate bluffing, etc. No, what I noticed was that I was losing confidence in my ability to win a hand - any hand. I got paranoid (beyond the level of paranoia that's healthy for a player) about my opponents hitting sets, two-pairs, straights, anything. I doubted raising, because I feared that they'd get what they were drawing for, and I'd lose again.
... and with that mind-set, I'm bound to lose even more money. I have to be able to play a hand when I'm ahead.
So now, a few hours later, my mind went into analytical mode, pondering what I did wrong. In turn, this is making me doubt my own capability of playing the game at all, despite the fact that my bankroll is steadily growing. Ironically, I'm starting to attribute my wins to luck, and my losses to bad play.
So I'm feeling grumpy. Anyone know any good jokes?