Keeping track of wins/losses affecting my game?
After just restarting my self challenge of building a BR from $10 and keeping track of all of my games, I found myself on a losing streak.
Now, I've had losing streaks before and its really has bothered me. I know losing is part of the game and everything. I've even gone as far as losing more than 3/4s of my bankroll on a single game (very bad BRM). I know, its stupid to risk that much but I've never had a problem if I lost. I'll just have to rebuild my BR again and I have no problem getting back into the games. So, losing has never really been a big deal to me. I play to improve my game and to have fun. This isnt a career for me and I dont treat it like such. I just make sure that I play the best of my ability.
However, since I've been keeping track of my games and my current losing streak, I find my game has changed a bit. Im playing a lot tighter then I usually do; especially in position when I should be stealing blinds. I find myself second guessing myself way too often and this is something that I never used to do.
Its not like Im afraid of losing a hand or a game, it happens. And its not like my BR cant afford it. The SnGs I play in are less than 5% of my total BR. Its a lot bigger percentage for my current challenge, but thats because Im starting with a $10 BR, but I have my full BR as a backing. So, its has nothing to do with losing money.
Is keeping track and a graph actually affecting my game? I can clearly see the downward slope starting and I think Im afraid of seeing it continue. It almost makes me a bit worried about playing because Im afraid of losing and adding to the downward slope. The funny thing is if I havent been keeping track and my losing streak continued, I would feel completely different about it. So, is it just in my head? Ive never had a problem with losing, so why is it bothering me so much now?