I think I am getting worse at poker (long-ish)
So I started playing about 5 months ago and have really gotten into poker. An unfortunate personality trait of mine is that I cannot just do something recreationally. What I mean is that I have to be competitive at whatever I do, and I push myself until I am. Unfortunately things aren't going so well for me in poker and I am frustrated.
A little background.... I never played poker before this except for a charity event and on the x-box (to learn how to play said charity event). I am in my mid 20s with 2 degrees from a good college. I have played mostly 3-5 SNGs and .10NL hold-em.
The first couple of months I played SNGs mostly and moved up a bit too quickly and did not do very well. Recently I started playing cash because I did not like the slow play of SNGs (the wait for blinds to go up). At first I did relatively well and made 30 dollars into over a hundred. Every now and then I would crank up a $5 dollar SNG to play in the background and that seemed to work well for me. After ~1800 hands (new HDD in Dec, started over) my stats are 28/14/5.8 in .10NL
I purchased HOH I (read 2x now) and SNG strategy, then Gordons little green book. I am currently reading Harrington on Cash I and have the little blue book waiting behind that (on a side note, the little green book is my favorite so far).
My style was TAG and I tried to focus on position, but it was really slow going. So I started loosening up more and more and began playing a more LAG style. This has not gone well for me and my bankroll is pretty much depleted. I now find myself pushing a table around and slowly building my stack (making good plays) until I run into that hand that wipes it all away. I will have a good hand and know that it is beat, but for some reason refuse to lay it down. hand like 2-pair and straight when I just know the other guy has the flush or the full house. I see it, I know based on the betting that he has it, but for some reason at that moment I simply refuse to lay it down. What this tells
me is that Im just not ready for LAG I guess.
One thing that throws a kink in it all is that over New Years my wife and I went to Vegas. I sat down for 5 1/2NL sessions (my first live table since playing seriously) ranging from 3-6 hours each. 4 out of 5 I won money, 3 of those 5 I more than doubled my stack while playing. The one losing session I lost my whole stack on about 3 plays after building a decent stack(1 a coin flip, one a suckout and the last a reckless bluff). How could I do so well there and come home and suck so badly?
So now I am sitting here nearly busted and trying to figure out how to start over. I will deposit, though I am really not happy with myself. I have lost about 200 dollars over 5 months. The money does not bother me, I have enjoyed the play, but the principle of it is really bothering me.
I will take a few days off, do some reading and studying of PT3 (only 1800 hands though) and come back to start over. I guess the point of the post is for some ideas on how to start over with a 100 dollar BR. Have any of you done this yourselves and if so what helped? If I am equally skilled (or unskilled) at cash and SNG what would you suggest?
Thanks in advance for any advice.