re: Poker & I...WAS...A...FOOL.....!
Hi, and welcome.
It seems you have a pretty balanced head on your shoulders. You seem to be making all the right moves for someone getting started in online poker, but, as is all too familiar, common sense goes out of the window as soon as emotions start getting involved.
Maybe you played badly to 'lose' (I guess you mean "not cash in") three SNGs in a row. Then again, maybe you didn't. It's understandable that you perhaps don't fully comprehend exactly how brutal the variance in poker can be seeing as you're just getting started in the poker world. It's easily possible to not cash in upwards of a dozen one table SNGs even playing perfect poker.
"Seeing monsters under the bed" (read "overestimating the quality of an opponents hand") is another familiar problem that often occurs subsequent to a losing run. If you've been taking horrific beats left right and centre, it becomes almost 'natural' to assume that some guy was calling you down with a gutshot has hit what appears to be a blank river when he raises you and you have the near-nuts.
First - distance 'bad results' from 'bad play'. While in the long run they're inextricably linked, in the short run they don't correlate too closely.
Second - read my ramblings on tilt
. What you say about you not realising you were tilting until you came 'off tilt' is an incredibly common problem - of course it would be much simpler for us to combat tilt if we were able to identify the times we were 'on tilt' as soon as tilt manifested itself.