My dilemna , i need advice
or else i think i have to quit.
I have played poker for around 20 years first live then on the net.
My history record is such
Event winner 19 times in Malmö, sweden
in tournaments ranging from 22 players up to 85
ITM i e 1-5 27 times
Final table 42 times .
this is out of 158 live tournaments.
Online much worse
My roi is woeful yes i have won lots of SNG s and won MTTS too and have quite a few final table finishes and ITM cashes.
Recently i wrote everything down , i played and was 4th in 21 5 dollar sn goes in a row, out of these times on 19 occasions i got my cash in preflop or on the flop with the best hand and was beat.
In mtts i tend to play tight at start and not get involved too early , i stick to the premium hands or limp with 88 etc to catch a cheap flop.
I always get my chips in the middle if i KNOW i have the best hand on say the flop or turn.
I want to take my live play to the tournaments online, i feel i have the capacity to make money there but im feeling pretty disgruntled at present.
What can i do?
Ive read all the books, i study the high stakes players online, i watch all the major tournaments on Pokerstars
(last few tables), i am justa at aloss as to wether to just accept ill never make it and play for the fun of it and not be angry when i get outdrawn by a guy with 8 4 when im holding aces for example.
Any advice at all would be great.