Game is not brutal, you just see it that way now, that you are annoyed.
When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at will change. You did a good thing stepping away from poker for a while. I just read in another thread people recommending a book for the mindset of poker. Ive told it to innumerous people already, but to me one of the most important things in poker is the way you look at the game. If you like something, you show more interest about it - you get better. But, since it is a game of gambling and luck involved ( Many people will decline that, but it is totally true ) you need to understand that you cannot guarantee a win for a hand, unless you got the nuts and as you already know it doesnt happen often enough. So every time you put your chips into the middle you are not sure that you will get them back. Knowing that you need to remain calm, not get upset about stuff. As the guy mentioned above you ended up with +2BI, so this is the better way to look at the situation, instead of I lost 8BI .. You need to look at the positive side of the game, if you only bother yourself with negative your hair will go grey in a blink of an eye. Youre losing money when you lose a hand, so you wouldnt want to play when you are in a bad emotional spot, do your best to avoid these situations. If you play a tournament and you lose a hand that doesnt mean that you still cannot win. But if you just keep whining about stuff it will get you nowhere. In my oppinion thats exactly what noobs do in every game - they just complain constantly, not bothering theirselves with facts. And the fact is that there is a tiny bit or a huge chunk of luck involved, according to some people ( Oppinion differs for everybody ), until you realize that you will just keep getting in bad emotional places over lost hands.
No doubt that the hands you lost are tough, but you can overcome that, if you are willing. In order to become a greater player that you are now, you need to accept the game as it is, not as you want it to be.
Because everytime we lose a hand over luck we say "Why does this always happen to me", but when you win a hand over luck, you smile, feel good about yourself. You can tell me now, that these hands are the worst beats youve ever had in your poker career, but I bet that you had people beaten over luck in much worse situations. What about then?
My oppinion is surely different than any other person that answered to your question, and is not directed exactly to poker, but it can be useful for you if you get to the essence of it. Everything else can be learned - you can learn to play tight, loose, to calculate odds
/outs. Everything about this game can be learned, but nobody can teach you what to do in a situation where you become emotionally upset and start losing money. Thats for you to find out about yourself.
Good luck, I hope you get your problemsover with and start actually having fun playing the game.