re: Poker & and the bad beats
First, welcome to CardsChat
Second, it's not just you. You experience the same amount of bad beats as everyone else. You're just choosing to place more significance on them.
Third, telling us you raised to 135 only really helps if we're also told what the blinds are, whether it's a tournament or a ring game (tournament, I suspect), what position you were in, what reads you have and what the stack sizes are.
If you want some meaningful analysis on this hand (or any other one, for that matter) there are plenty of people here that are happy to help. Just post it in the hand analysis section and ask questions about whatever's giving you trouble.
If you just wanna vent that's cool too, best place for it is the brags, beats and variance forum though.