Originally Posted by trog081
Well said, im aware that im bored and depressed. There is reason for that situation and it is more and more progressing in something worse. But enough said.Im playing 8 poker rooms atm, spending roughly 14 hours per day playing them all, irony is i never tried full tilt poker which would be best synonym for my mental state
Wont lie to my self that im not going to play any more in my life or forcing my self on some determined period. Im going to reduce time gradually, first im gonna stop to play rooms that are most going on my nerves, thats first step and i wont think about next one till i make realization of first one.
Well, for me you are not completely seeing the situation, you are in denial when you speak about full tilt, and you are looking for something or someone to blame.
Changing poker client will not change the way you are playing. I had the same thoughts in the passed, and i was thinking that pokerstars was the cause of all my problems at poker, but it was not. I know that i made bad decisions, was me, i pressed the button.
Until i realised that something was really wrong , i used to blame the others players , the software, that's so wrong!
You made a decision based in what you are and in what you believed, you pressed that button not the others. did you understand what i mean? you really are playing too many hours, it is a fact. The major problem is when you dont want to see the full picture.
I had a few days on poker that i made a lot of money and i played in a brilliant way, i was 100% concentrated on the game, my mind was there, no doubts.
And the other days i started to play with a wrong mind set, i lost money and i never had the hability to forget those brilliant days, and that killed me because i started to feel so frustrated, and i was addicted with ideia of making easy money too fast. that's so wrong! Again.
And what depresses me most, is the fact that i know that when i have a clean mind, i can do really good decisions. I was not able to analyse by my self that in those days, the last thing that could be a good decision was playing poker. That'what i need to work on.
With that said, good luck in your journey